Hey Everyone!! It has been quite some time but there are reasons for that. I have been busy thinking about my life and making decisions that were not necessarily easy but hopefully will be best for my life. Instead of trying to type a total month's worth of activity I am going to just pick out key things that happened. I took a Clep test for Precalc which was supposed to be Trig. I took the test after studying for a different test. I was so nervous as I had no idea the outcome and it was a $60 gamble. I took the test and I pressed the submit score the two times you need to. I needed a 50 on the test to pass. I looked at the screen and I saw the 50. I was so happy that I got the 50 and all my hard work and hours of studying by reading about 250 pages about Trig came in handy. I don't know how I passed it but I did pass it. I was so happy and the score is hanging on the refrigerator. That was a huge hurdle for me to face but I realized that was nothing. I found out the next day that Sean would be coming home too close to the date of the concert so I decided that I would ask Kenzie to go instead of Sean. I was very upset and so was he. The next week was terrible as I was ready to give up on our relationship doubting how strong our relationship was. After speaking with family and friends, I made a decision that would stay intact unless Sean said something that was not good. I did not tell Sean my decision as I knew I had to talk to him first and then make it official. I would like to thank everyone that was there for me who truly helped me come up with the right decision. The next huge event was what I had waited for a long time... the Mariah Carey Concert!!! She had not toured for 5 years and I have liked her for about 8 years. I love all her songs and her lyrics tell the story of my life. I bought expensive tickets that were very great. I brought Kenzie with me to the concert which was great as we had a blast. We had no seats but special VIP general admission tickets. She performed 3 songs being not more than 5 feet away from me. When she first came out I had tears in my eyes because I knew that my dream to see her live had finally came true. She did some great songs and it was about 1.5 hours long. Sean Paul opened up and really got the crowd ready. The concert was just so awesome and we finally got home. I was up until 3 am and I was wideawake because it was such a wonderful time. Finally my dream came true and all the bad things in life just diminished for that moment. As I told Sean after the concert and a good week to think about everything between us, Sean and I met to talk about out situation. I was extremely hurt and he was scared as to see what decision I would make. We met at my house and we just exchanged a hug. We then went to walk around a nearby field by my house since we had some talking to do. We spoke and learned alot about our hopes and dreams. We talked about what we want to do in each of our futures and where and if we fit into each others. We then stopped and sat at a bench. After talking, I knew that my initial decision would be the correct one. As I held Sean in my arms and we hugged and cried together, it was clear that it was time to give him a second chance. We talked about what had to be done in order to strengthen our relationship. We hugged and kissed and promised each other that we would as a couple do things and do what is best for our relationship. My heart was in the right spot and I was happier than ever. After this event I worked and now I am back at Centenary for my Senior Year. I can't believe that I am graduating this Spring and that I will have to find a new job and also go out into the real world. It is great to be back though as I am seeing my college friends who I missed over the summer and am keeping busy with my 6 classes and job. Hopefully next semester I will not have as heavy as a load but if I do it will be mostly all math classes so I am looking forward to that. I can finally see all my hard work paying off and I only hope that happens within the near future when I need it to. Sean and I are doing even better than we were doing before his trip. Once again our hurt has turned itself into a positive force causing our relationship be stronger than ever. I have realized that I love him so much that it would take a huge event to ruin that between us. Recently, I have helped Sean through a disagreement that did not involve me but I was there to comfort him. I helped him realize what he was having a problem visualizing. This event showed him and his family that I am a girlfriend that will stick with Sean through anything. He means so much to me and I will always be there for him. I have never loved anyone like I loved him before and hopefully he will be the only one I do. If there is one thing I see in my future, it is that Sean will have some part in my life. I love him so much. One last note before I go to bed would be the rememberance of all those who lost their lives during September 11, 2001. I feel for those people who have lost loved relatives and I only hope that they were able to grieve and move on with their lives as hard as it may be. It is a day for everyone to reflect about those who they have lost and those who we love. Life is so valuable that remember to tell people how much they mean to you because you never know when time comes and its the last time you will ever see them. Sweet Dreams and Good Night...